As far as carnal desires go,
They serve there purpose well.
But a kiss on the head shouts life
..Into otherwise dormant places.
As they stay together in silence,
As his masculine arms enfold her.
A kiss on the head is not sexual.
A kiss on the head calms your heart.
As you stay, just knowing,
Being close to each other is enough.
The hunger to just to touch.
To feel the beating of their heart.
And to let yourself smile
As two beat in sync.
If this were a dream by ALIthiumDreamer, literature
Literature
If this were a dream
If this were a dream,
That awkward and untimely goodbye wouldn't have happened.
If this moment were a dream,
I'm sure I would find actual stars shining in your eyes.
Glimmering with that ache you make me feel in my chest.
If this were a dream you wouldn't have let the moment slip,
You wouldn't have accepted my goodbye, and stayed behind.
You would have put hold on reality,
Taken action and grabbed my hand as I reluctantly left;
And turn me back with a gentle pull,
And as though there were a physical pull I suddenly can only see your eyes.
Looking into them we both found each others lips and planted a kiss that finally set your feelings to min
Constant thought of the 'could have been'
Endless worry for the future.
They expect me to go on as though I'm still normal.
And so I do.
Some see my mask.
Some trick me into a smile.
Some hear my sorrow and question.
But none see my tears,
that come so fast they distort my face and hurt my head.
A spot that is so huge in my heart attempted to leave.
A spot I could never forget.
Someone, so beloved, and with a beauty everyone could see but them.
Someone who is more than anything just a wonderful friend.
If love were all that counted by ALIthiumDreamer, literature
Literature
If love were all that counted
If love were all that counted
Would it make things easier?
In this life we steal, lie, abuse, and add so much negative...
Would it be easier without it???
It's Easy to Forget by ALIthiumDreamer, literature
Literature
It's Easy to Forget
It's easy to forget.
It's easy to fall into routine.
Daily life is unfortunately predictable.
And it's funny to remember.
The colors jokes and little things,
That make this life so real.
So bright.
A bullet taken for my soul,
Blood spilt out of love.
And I feel grateful, clean and new.
Alive in knowledge that I'll be so forever.
You were my highlight.
You were my hope.
But things got messy.
You said goodbye.
I didn't think I would care.
I did.
Now you're back,
With your stories of regret.
My heart says I should trust you again.
But my head is scared of your games.
I think I really loved you.
And you say you loved me.
But even still you left.
What's to stop you from leaving again?
He is all in my head, and still
He is completely alive.
A scene plays out within my mind.
His quick decision made,
And finding his feet,
He quickly finds his way to me.
Placing his hand behind my ear,
He takes a good look into my eyes,
Finding value deep within.
Suddenly sweetly our lips begin to touch.
And I know I would know my feelings.
I know I would be in indescribable bliss.
But it's never real.
He's never mine.
Eponine, with her love,
So deep and unchanging.
Was so strong and she knew,
His love was not for her.
But I don't quite love,
And just barely like.
So why is it so hard,
A crush to crush me.
A force within me.
Lets me know I am lost
In his eyes.
And absent in his soul.
Eponine's words echo
in my thoughts.
And whisper in my ear,
When I see him.
Follow me, if you want.
I know I would love it if you did.
I wish you could just say yes,
With nothing holding you back.
Just you. And Me.
Just for a while, Just us.
I know it's only me.
And his feelings don't comply,
He's cute and amazing, arty and fun.
But to crush my fantasy even more he's
Got a girl I'm sure is "the one"
For quite some time I didn't know.
He wasn't single, as I hoped.
I didn't ask, but foolishly I dreamed.
Older, wiser, talented and such.
Him liking me? At work,I am unraveling like a seam.
A happy part of my day,
Seeing him.
Just talking.
I need him out. Out of my head,
I wish he could just go out of my life.
I've known him only a few weeks
but somehow that was enough.
To make me know I want him.
I guess,
A LOT too much.
As far as carnal desires go,
They serve there purpose well.
But a kiss on the head shouts life
..Into otherwise dormant places.
As they stay together in silence,
As his masculine arms enfold her.
A kiss on the head is not sexual.
A kiss on the head calms your heart.
As you stay, just knowing,
Being close to each other is enough.
The hunger to just to touch.
To feel the beating of their heart.
And to let yourself smile
As two beat in sync.
If this were a dream by ALIthiumDreamer, literature
Literature
If this were a dream
If this were a dream,
That awkward and untimely goodbye wouldn't have happened.
If this moment were a dream,
I'm sure I would find actual stars shining in your eyes.
Glimmering with that ache you make me feel in my chest.
If this were a dream you wouldn't have let the moment slip,
You wouldn't have accepted my goodbye, and stayed behind.
You would have put hold on reality,
Taken action and grabbed my hand as I reluctantly left;
And turn me back with a gentle pull,
And as though there were a physical pull I suddenly can only see your eyes.
Looking into them we both found each others lips and planted a kiss that finally set your feelings to min
Constant thought of the 'could have been'
Endless worry for the future.
They expect me to go on as though I'm still normal.
And so I do.
Some see my mask.
Some trick me into a smile.
Some hear my sorrow and question.
But none see my tears,
that come so fast they distort my face and hurt my head.
A spot that is so huge in my heart attempted to leave.
A spot I could never forget.
Someone, so beloved, and with a beauty everyone could see but them.
Someone who is more than anything just a wonderful friend.
If love were all that counted by ALIthiumDreamer, literature
Literature
If love were all that counted
If love were all that counted
Would it make things easier?
In this life we steal, lie, abuse, and add so much negative...
Would it be easier without it???
It's Easy to Forget by ALIthiumDreamer, literature
Literature
It's Easy to Forget
It's easy to forget.
It's easy to fall into routine.
Daily life is unfortunately predictable.
And it's funny to remember.
The colors jokes and little things,
That make this life so real.
So bright.
A bullet taken for my soul,
Blood spilt out of love.
And I feel grateful, clean and new.
Alive in knowledge that I'll be so forever.
You were my highlight.
You were my hope.
But things got messy.
You said goodbye.
I didn't think I would care.
I did.
Now you're back,
With your stories of regret.
My heart says I should trust you again.
But my head is scared of your games.
I think I really loved you.
And you say you loved me.
But even still you left.
What's to stop you from leaving again?
He is all in my head, and still
He is completely alive.
A scene plays out within my mind.
His quick decision made,
And finding his feet,
He quickly finds his way to me.
Placing his hand behind my ear,
He takes a good look into my eyes,
Finding value deep within.
Suddenly sweetly our lips begin to touch.
And I know I would know my feelings.
I know I would be in indescribable bliss.
But it's never real.
He's never mine.
Eponine, with her love,
So deep and unchanging.
Was so strong and she knew,
His love was not for her.
But I don't quite love,
And just barely like.
So why is it so hard,
A crush to crush me.
A force within me.
Lets me know I am lost
In his eyes.
And absent in his soul.
Eponine's words echo
in my thoughts.
And whisper in my ear,
When I see him.
Follow me, if you want.
I know I would love it if you did.
I wish you could just say yes,
With nothing holding you back.
Just you. And Me.
Just for a while, Just us.
I know it's only me.
And his feelings don't comply,
He's cute and amazing, arty and fun.
But to crush my fantasy even more he's
Got a girl I'm sure is "the one"
For quite some time I didn't know.
He wasn't single, as I hoped.
I didn't ask, but foolishly I dreamed.
Older, wiser, talented and such.
Him liking me? At work,I am unraveling like a seam.
A happy part of my day,
Seeing him.
Just talking.
I need him out. Out of my head,
I wish he could just go out of my life.
I've known him only a few weeks
but somehow that was enough.
To make me know I want him.
I guess,
A LOT too much.
'Twas the night before Christmas, when all through dA,
Not a troll was stirring, nor Grinch in his sleigh.
Deviations were hung in digital Galleries with care,
In hopes that +Favourites soon would be there.
The n00bs were nestled all snug in their beds,
While visions of Daily Deviations danced in their heads.
And Fella in his 'kerchief, and spyed (https://www.deviantart.com/spyed) with his night-light,
Had just settled down to log-off for the night,
When over in the Forums there arose such a clatter,
Fella sprang back online to see what was the matter.
To the browser window he flew like a flash,
Tore open the tabs and refreshed the cache.
When what to his art-loving ey
Over a text I just sent something that I didn't think I could ever say and now I look at my phone like it's acid wondering if he's going to defy my words and make one reply....
I unfriended him to on the facebook...I've never done that before...not to someone who wasn't an annoying younger person whom I didn't really know.
He mattered...and I usually feel enlightened after sending something like this..which I do...but It also means the end to a chapter, and it was a big chapter...but I couldn't let it become the whole book....
This is what I sent if you guys care at all
D*$(#, I don't think it's a good idea for us to talk any more. I real
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sS6Y3hf57KY
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5Jd9dfn0Fgc
I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the Pacific and
You might think I'm losing my mind,
But I will shy away from the specifics...
Please don't read unless you actually WANT to go through a little Allison pity party....because that's all this is..
Sometimes i remember where I was at, and when I look at my sister, it's been almost four years...but it was still yesterday to me a lot of the time....scars....internal and external remind me of loads of stuff.....
My dad isn't a good person..I know that,and am ok with that and have grown to be
Today was interesting...I got up rather early for myself and went to class where I took a test that I feel surprisingly well about, and then I met an old friend for a while...an old friend who hurt me, a lot more than I should have let him hurt me....and now he's asking for forgiveness and I am so willing to give it to him....but I feel like there is a void inside of me when I think of him, where the trust used to be...and I can't be sure if I am willing to give him another chance...
....I am honestly so very confused about all of that...
I went to youth group right after and I was just soaking in all of the information that was being taugh